#71. You’re afraid to tell people how you feel because it will destroy them, so you bury it deep inside yourself where it destroys you.”
#72. When the best part of your day is to be asleep. Because nothing can hurt you when your asleep.”
#73. Don’t worry about breaking me or making me sad because you can’t break something that is already broken and sadden someone who is already sad.”
#74. No one’s coming to save you so be your own hero.”
#75. #Never have I dealt with anything more difficult than my own soul.””
#76. Just when I thought I was better everything came crashing down again.”
#77. What does depression feel like? Depression is like a nightmare. I have no control of what’s going on. There is no way out and it feels like no one cares. No matter what I do I’m never good enough. I’ll always be useless, not good enough, worthless, and hopeless. I’m scared and lonely all the time. No matter what I’m doing or who I’m with the feelings are always there. It feels like an endless circle of guilt, worthlessness, pain, fear, and weakness. You feel like there is no point in trying anymnore. It’s an endless circle of failure. You feel empty, like you’re not really exsisting. You’re breathing, but that doesn’t mean that you’re alive. It’s when it hurts to smile, hurts to laugh, hurts to breathe. Everthing you do hurts, and there’s no getting away from it. No one understands what you’re feeling. You’re silent, but in reality you are screaming for help and no one can save you. You’re on your own for now on. Everything you do leaves you tired. Things you used to enjoy, they don’t being any comfort to you. The only thing that might bring relief is the feeling of the cold blade, the taste of alcohol, the smell of drugs. People will try to take those things away from you, but you don’t let them. They don’t understand what it’s like living with depression. It’s your throat tightening up with every sob as you cry making it harder and harder to breathe, it’s hoping that every night you don’t wake up, that maybe the pain will finally stop, even though you know it won’t. It’s always lying when someone asks you. #How’re you?” It’s always feeling tired, even if you sleep for ten hours, it’s feeling so weak, everymuscle in your body aching. Depression is all of those things, and so much more, it’s unexplainable. Only you knows what your depression feels like. You know how horrible it is. You know it feels like it’ll never end. But you know what? You aren’t alone in this.”
#78. When I’m upset. I shut myself down. I have no motivation for anything. I tell myself that nobody cares, even though I know some do. I think about all of the negative things I could possibly think of. I give myself all the pain, thinking I deserve it. I’m not sure why I do that, but that’s just how I am.”
#79. Depression isn’t always at 3 am. Sometimes it happens at 3pm, while you’re with friends and you’re half way through a laugh.”
#80. Anxiety is when you care too much about everything. Depression is when you don’t really care about anything. Having both is just like hell.”
